I think I need to change my mindset when it comes to working out.
This past summer, I pretty much…didn’t. I had the time, even though my schedule was a little wonky, constantly changing and different from usual, messing up my routine. But even still, it wasn’t a priority, like it should have been; like it has been for the past year and a half.
And I think it’s because I stopped losing weight.
I stayed stationary, or plateaued, ten pounds shy of my initial goal. Since the summer, I’ve been fluctuating between fifteen and twenty pounds where I hoped to be, gaining back a little of the weight I lost. But, I also started doing more strength training instead of strictly cardio, so I don’t think that’s necessarily all fat gain back. Regardless, I haven’t had the drive that I had before, with working out, and I think I’ve figured out why.
I’ve been putting too much pressure on myself to lose weight.
So I want to change that mindset, so that working out becomes a priority again. Not something I do out of fear of gaining all my weight back or something I feel like I must do, but something I choose to do because I enjoy it, because I want to, because it makes my body feel better, my day more productive and helps shape a body that I’m proud of and enjoy being in. Losing weight on top of that and inching towards my goal number is a great bonus, but I think I’ve been letting that be too much of my focus and, when the scale remained the same (or rose), I got discouraged. And though I didn’t think, Well, I’m not going to make training a priority, since I’m not seeing the results I want, I think unconsciously, I did something similar to that.
Granted, there were other factors in play, too. Working out consistently with an eight to five schedule is a lot harder than I thought it would be. The summer is the only time during the year that I actually get to see my boyfriend on a regular basis, so I spent a lot of time with him. It’s also the only time I really get to be social, so I have some coffee dates and time spent with my family that interrupted any sense of a routine. On one hand, the environment wasn’t conducive.
On the other hand, I just wasn’t trying hard enough.
Now that the semester is starting fresh and I’ll be back on my regular schedule, I’m excited to get back into a regular workout routine. But I think I’ll be exploring more options of what exactly I want to do. I found out there is a weight room free to use at my university that I’m going to try and take advantage of a couple times a week, but I also miss how happy I feel after a solid run, so I want to keep doing that, too. But I want to reframe my focus from staring at the scale and getting discouraged by those numbers and instead, enjoy the process. Enjoy working out, find workouts that excite me and challenge me, a routine that works and just focus on how my body feels and how it looks, instead of being so fixated by seeing progress on the scale. Thinking about it like this excites me. Focusing on improving my body and enjoying the process excites me. Making progress again excites me.
It’s been a while since the idea of working out excited me, so I think this shift in mindset, this going back to the drawing board, in terms of routine and training regimine, is the right choice.
So let’s do this, shall we?